i'm feeling so angry. i feel like jumping down, feel like slashing my wrist, and paint my walls red. and thats so emo. HAHA. so not me. okay. but i do feel angry. family + money matters. and im not sure if the blog is private enough for me to share it. all i can say is that everytime i have money, its been taken away or so called 'lend'. now thats frustrating if its been happening for such a long time. and sometimes u wonder with the income that the family gets, where do all the money go? to the extent that they have to resort to borrowing and loaning? i'm so confused, yet, i believe that one day i will finally uncover the secrets if theres any.

for now, let swimming do all the de-stress work.

my holidays plan is finally up. i will go swimming every weekday, jogging every weeknight, and self workout at home. my body is way unfit, and if i want to pursue a healthy lifestyle, this is what i need, and lastly.. i'm gona drink milk everyday, sort of.. combine it with kelogg's frosties! weee! im gona buy it now. serious.

i've also been very hardworking during the holidays, helping out at home, even mum's surprised with the sudden motivation to stay at home. lol. i think gf started working is quite a good thing(hehe.. if not i would want to meet her everyday!), cos i get to catch up with family and friends, and also... MYSELF! now that im free everyday, i can spend time doing whatever i want.

this is gonna be one healthy holiday for me.

CHEERS!

so the guys finally got their dream of playing at the cage, thanks to the brilliant organiser.. me! though, it was just okay cos my shoe now has a big mouth!

all of a sudden, after watching zee tv, i feel like persuading my granny to buy all the 90s hindi songs CDs! HAHA! i reallly miss the songs, to be honest. i was quite a bollywood fanatic during my younger days, now its different, its totally boring. no more pretty actresses and handsome actors. no more nice songs and catchy rhytms, how i loved the beat and sound of those indian tablas(isit spelt that way? hee)

and im already preparing for my PP, my topic is on the Zoo. im still not quite sure wad aspects of the zoo should i focus on, but heck! i shall go there and get useful information, snap loads of nice pics of the environment n animals, and also declare to them my interest in working there in future! (a good trick to secure ur future is to bootlick) but dont get me wrong, im really interested to work there, just wana know deeper about them. unfortunately though, gf cant accompany me there cos shes working! nvm. theres always another time rite babe? (oh oh.. is that a hint!)

i shall speak no more! ZaSS!!

to all celebrating Valentine's Day. apparently we've never celebrated it as its not appropriate. haha. cheers and love!

oh yeah! we enjoyed the day so much even though it was meant to be just a routine day out. hee. to add to all the fun, we talked about how we met, and the triangle love affair. HAHAHAA.. ive never felt so happy and relaxed for quite a while when we go out. we wud usually run out of any plans to do, places to go. well i guess u can say that we've gone too many. haha. she has finally fnish her diploma n now proceeding with her degree, and i wish her all the best. even though she has to leave me for boston for 2 months nxt yr, thats the best i can do to stop her from studying overseas. heehee.

and hey hun, lets meet up to continue where we stopped. :)